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Hole In My Chest
03:47
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there's a hole in my chest
and i just don't feel anything
there's a hole in my chest
and its processing everything
and i knew that the climate would change us
we'd play different roles
and i knew that the fights and the arguments
were taking their toll
stay close to me, you make my life much better
you're like an innocent dream
and i'm a scarlet letter
when you kick and you scream
i'll keep a distance but love you
there's a hole in my chest
and it just ain't receiving
all the love that you give
so i just stare at the ceiling
stay close to me, you make my life much better
you're like an innocent dream
and i'm a scarlet letter
when you kick and you scream
i'll keep a distance but love you
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2. |
Over The Edge
03:16
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over the edge
i'm fading out
i'm crossing a line
i took it way too deep
i've made an assumption you've forgotten me
i bused all the way from town to ellerslie
to look in your eyes, to feel your energy
over the edge
i'm walking out
at six in the morning for the bus to leave
i don't wanna wake you so i'll tiptoe and creep
and walk a slow pace like you've forgotten me
there's no excuse for my insecurites
it'll sure be the death of me
but i'm old now
i'm wiser
won't let my doubt
find her
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3. |
Book Launch
03:31
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i can't pay attention
you're breaking my heart
its selfish and desperate
i can't play a part
i get the impression you feel a bit down
but don't leave your light on
i won't come around
to excavate all your deeper meanings, man
cause my boats all sank
i float all alone here now
alone at the book launch you sat by my side
asking my name and whats wrong with my eyes
its too intense these things you bring up now
i just got off work
just wanna lay my head down
instead of being here
playing to you people while you point and laugh over your beer
i've nothing left to tell you other than the fact i'm here
blows your theory out the water that i'll die alone
blows your theory out the water that you're right
i can't excavate all your deeper meanings man
cause my boats all sank i float all alone here now
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4. |
Delete That Memory
03:17
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i wait at the lights, can't delete that memory
such a surprise that you're right there in front of me
thought that the price paid would damage everything
appears that you helped me and gave me thicker skin
every sunday i wait for your call
and then i remember its dead and gone but
i just wanted to tell you you're beautiful as you are
we never lock eyes but you're such a shiny star
we're polar opposites
but we fit for some reason
i can't forget your pretty face
i won't forget to keep it vague
i thought that the good times were gone but they never left
they're coming back tenfold and now i'm good again
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5. |
Everything is Gold
03:47
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how'm i gonna get back to the man i was
when he couldn't be fucked with the thought of himself?
i'm not saying i'm lost without you but
i'm just a little bit lost is all
how'm i gonna deal with adjusting to this loss
i'm like a little kid that's looking for his mummy
i'm sure that everything will keel over but
this feeling of helplessness is killing me
i don't know when i had sunk the boat
but i know that everything is gold in heaven now
its just a memory holding me
and crushing everything in front of me
while i'm awake
how'm i gonna find my way back to square one?
we've been joined at the hip for almost eleven months
not gonna give into the thoughts i have when i'm alone
gonna run away as fast as i can from it
i don't know when i had sunk the boat
but i know that everything is gold in heaven now
its just a memory holding me
and crushing everything in front of me
while i'm awake
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6. |
In A While
02:55
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i never know if i should laugh or cry
and i don't know if you're the reason why
the questions that i should have written down slip away
and though my feelings go up and down
they stick together when you're around
i accept the fact that i can't see you now
but in a while
in a while
i take a walk and get my hopes up high
they fall like petals by the end of the night
but i can't get angry cause of some little note you'd write
as all the feelings will wash away
i'll miss you more with each passing day
can someone surgically remove this stake
from my heart?
i'll meet you when our love is lost (in a while)
i'll miss the nights i held you close (in a while)
our chemistry not built on lust (in a while)
but trust
i miss your body and i miss your skin
might be too long til i can love again
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7. |
Auto Pilot
05:14
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i know somethings wrong today
always feeling half awake
from dreaming while i break my hands
and work all fucking day
running like a lunatic
from the thoughts i cannot quit
i'll play a song it won't feel right
but it's a nice distraction from the
people in the world that still hurt me
and the people talking shit all day
besides i'm doing time just living
i'm trudging back and forth to the same
spot yet again
self proclaiming hypocrite
i can tell you're full of shit
i saw you in the shopping queue
your payment just declined
fall asleep with phone in hand
scrolling past my older friends
i should have sent a message
but i just can't be fucked
with remembering who i was with them
and showing them who i am now
sometimes you gotta quit to enjoy this
relentless auto pilot living
i can't sit here and say its not boring
i can't sit here and just kill time
i got to do something that heals me
i'm restless and i want to die
even though you're being nice i can't shake this
hopeless feeling that you hate my guts
that dead look in your eyes is telling
but that's what 15 year old me thought
the lengths you have to go for pleasure
they take its weary toll on me
so i'll sit here and enjoy my weekend
alone while watching chills and limmy
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8. |
Wormholes
02:09
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9. |
Bodyguard
05:27
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better go swim in that heat
baking my skin on that beach
caught in that rip tide, washed away from sight
couldn't hear your frail scream
and now the summertime makes me empty
because i know that you're not here with me
we need a bodyguard on this damn beach
because the waves have stole you right from me
made a bad timed exchange
sank to the lowest place
covered in black slime, algae and seaweed
things wont be quite the same
because the horse i rode in on has died
i'm counting millions for every time i tried
to justify all that i do to survive
but i've got nothing left to prove to you guys
you know the summertime makes me empty
because i know that you're not here with me
we need a bodyguard on this damn beach
because the waves have stole you right from me
swim with the light
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Learning how to be my own best mate.
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